Random Stuff 2

Sometimes, we all get overwhelmed by life. Annoyed with the ones we love. Totally and completely frustrated with ourselves. And, that’s okay because as humans equipped with intelligence, we think of ways to push through things like this. But, it takes the willpower we were blessed with to put those ways to use.

In the last two years, I’ve come pretty close to giving up on myself. I’m a worrier and I tend to worry most about stuff I don’t understand. When I was hospitalized in 2010 with congestive heart failure due to an enlarged heart (cardiomyopathy,) I was scared as hell because any issue with your strawberry tart (Jason Statham, Crank 2,) is something extremely serious. All I could think was why me and how in the hell did I get to this point? My condition was so dire, my cardiomyopathy was described as end-stage. Finally, I was released and my pill regimen was 7 pills a day, one of which had to be taken 3 times a day. Yes, I cried A LOT. I couldn’t sleep. I was angry because people whose lifestyle was way worse than mine (no exercise, heavy smokers, fast food eaters to my moderate exercise, no smoking, relatively healthy eating) had better tickers. With all that negativity brewing inside of me, I really felt like giving up because I didn’t want to live like that. Then, I thought about what one of the doctors told me in the hospital-if you can find the discipline and determination to do as your doctors tell you, you can get better. The road to that is long and not easy, but you can get there because you caught a break. Your heart walls are thick and that can be worked with. Holding on to that small nugget of positivity, I began to make changes. More exercise. Less red meat and fried food, more chicken and fish (baked, broiled, grilled.) Lots more fruit and veggies. Naturally, these led to other changes in my life, other positives that continue to build on each other.

As of June 2011, my heart efficiency was up to 45% from a mind numbing 25%. On top of that, I’m now on five pills and I’m still 68 pounds lighter. My dark periods with my health still visit, but I focus on all the accomplishments I have under my belt. I will get better. Be easy and stay on top of your health.

Most importantly, NEVER GIVE UP.

P.S. If you all are interested in my progress or would like to know more about congestive heart failure and cardiomyopathy, let me know and I’ll make sure to include more entries.